Most Recent Developments

Well life is going good if you count a bladder infection and a cold from the depths of satans underworlds a good thing, but it makes for hilarium when you start talking to people and it supprises them that your voice is as deep as it is. Life has been treating me pretty good lately, I imagine. I am still regrouping from the recent break up last month but there are great things in store for me, I can taste it. Trust me I will update everyone soon!!

SUNNY, BEAUTIFUL DOWNTOWN OF MY HOMETOWN SAN DIEGO, MAKES YOU WANT TO VISIT HUH??? COME ON DOWN!!

Tough Times, New Beginnings

Well recently I broke up with my boyfriend of two years. We are on two seperate paths, I need marriage and he isn't sure if he wants too. I guess you would think that placed in the situation of losing me or getting married that you would think that them picking marriage out of losing you would be the most logical answer to me. But unfortunately this story between me and Darryl doesn't have the best of endings, we are done and over. It is sad to watch someone who holds such a spot in your heart disappear, it is too hard to be friends, I am sincerely trying but I guess part of me still holds out that he said he didn't want that, not now or ever really. A part of you dies in essence when you hear the word no uttered out of the lips of someone whom you love, but I guess life is about what we do when we hear "no's" I guess life can't be all daisies and roses and I love you's but big decisions. Man, what I wouldn't give to be a kid again whose main goal was to get messy and dirty outside enjoying everything. Sometimes when I look back, I didn't expect to see myself here at 25, feeling the need to have a marriage and kids, and watching someone leave out of my life and then having someone else besides that person in your life, sometimes I feel like rebounding so fast makes the past not exist. Am I worried no one will want to be married to me in life, nah, it just unfortunately isn't the person that I wanted it to be, but just as always it is in God's hands and i am just the follower of the road. Will I be ok? YES. Right now does the mere thought of being his friend make me cry, yes, but i am not sure if I am ready to completely let go, but I have too. It isn't fair to those who are to follow Darryl to have hang ups about where we are. So I guess what I am trying to say is goodbye with the old and in with the new. I don't know what life is going to hold for me, but I was created with a huge heart, a pretty smile, and a strong set of shoulders to carry anyone including myself through whatever the world throws at me. Bring it on, I can handle it and with a smile at that!!!

I just heard great news!! My sister might be a mommy come this summer!! I know that she will be a great mom and has been waiting a long time. Just wanted to let you know sister I love ya and am always here and am so excited to meet the new one!! They are going to adopt a family members of her husbands new born child down in Guatemala. I love you!!!